Untamed

I push you away,

Make things difficult,

Because it’s me that ultimately gets hurt.

xxx

I want you to hurt,

Like I do.

I antagonize you and piss you off,

Because it’s me that ultimately gets hurt.

xxx

I call you every name

Under the sun,

Or I go silent.

There is no in-between.

xxx

It’s the silence that’s deadly.

I’m squashing it down,

Putting a lid on it,

Adding more and more.

xxx

It may be days, weeks, months

Or years,

but that lid will come off.

It will explode.

You will hear what I have kept

Hidden

For so long.

xxx

It will hurt you, 

like you hurt me.

I will hurt.

xxx

You will carry on.

Because it’s me that ultimately gets hurt