Untamed

I’m angry at you.

I don’t even know you,

but I’m so angry.

xxx

While I understand that the depths of life

have swallowed you up,

you had no other option.

It got too much and that,

was your only way out,

you didn’t have to do it like that.

xxx

Images will never leave their minds.

They will never be the same.

They will never look at life the same way,

or understand how a father could hurt 

them

in a way no father should hurt their

children.

Years and years of therapy

will come.

While you…

you get to not exist.

You don’t get to see the hurt and torment

that you left behind.

You get away with it.

xxx

I don’t know if I think

you are a coward

or brave

or an arse

or if I feel sorry for you.

I don’t know how i feel about

what you did.

xxx

So, I cry for your children.

I don’t know what else to do.

I don’t know how to work out

my confusion.

xxx

I’ve been there.

I’ve been low and wanted

to finish it.

I still don’t think I could do that.

It’s just unspeakable.

xxx

I think if you need too…

Do it…

But,

you didn’t need to do it like that.