Untamed

Twisting in my gut,

so much pain.

You have no idea

how it hurts.

Same as I cannot

imagine how you hurt.

xxx

It knocks me back.

Sets me into quiet mode.

I pull away

because of your words.

xxx

Ask me to talk,

yet I open up,

you squash me back down.

Falling into my safe space,

the darkness.

Where I don’t acknowledge 

my feelings.

xxx

Family is meant to be safe,

yet it’s where I’m on edge.

Can’t say or do

the right thing.

Always hurting in some way,

daily.

xxx

This isn’t what I planned.

This isn’t what you planned.

So be careful 

with your words.

Be careful with us.

We are fragile

and darkness is my peace.