Untamed

It’s like being tossed

around in the ocean.

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One minute,

breathing.

Next minute,

taking a huge gulp.

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That salty water

filling your lungs,

so, the air can’t escape.

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How do you get out?

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How do you escape?

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This fucking rolling

constantly over and 

over?

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Feeling sick.

The ever-growing nausea

building up

as you swallow more

of that disgusting water.

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Going dizzy,

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Can’t think.

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Head so full of panic.

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Rising and falling,

like waves.

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What would it feel

Like

to totally let go?

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To succumb to those waves?

That murky water

filling you up?

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To not feel it in your

lungs,

your head.

To not feel anything?

It’s tempting.

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So tempting,

to just forget.

Breathe that

last lung full.

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Go under.

Just give in to it all.

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One final time